Let go and Let God

Today started off great.  I went to work after dropping my son off at daycare like we always do.  I even took water instead of soda to work (major step for me)!  We performed a couple surgeries, had some follow-up patients, nothing unusual.

Until I got a call from my son's daycare.  Apparently his dad tried to pick him up without me knowing and I had to get the cops involved... had to leave work 30 minutes before I was supposed to to deal with that loveliness and had a mental breakdown.

I am always so worried I'm going to lose my job over stupid things like today or that Kayden will be kicked out of his daycare over ongoing problems with has dad.  I was crying and couldn't stop but had to go back and finish my day at work.

I was able to do that with a little help from a friend (we'll call that friend a calm-down pill) and the rest of the day went perfectly fine.  Prayer and support from everyone involved got me through today with a positive outlook on it all.

If I don't stress anything to you, or if you take nothing from my ramblings, please remember this:

"There is nothing our God cannot handle.  Let go and let God!"

College Life/Green Lantern

So it's been a busy few days, but I am proud to say that I passed both finals for this semester and should be receiving an A in both classes.  It's crazy hectic for me all the time since I started school again, but it's so worth the eventual income.

Seeing as how school is about to start back up for the rest of the college students around here, I feel compelled to share some of the things I've learned in the past 8 weeks.

     *Do not feel ashamed if you do not understand the material being taught to you.  I myself had to ask my younger sister to explain things to me because she knew the subject better than I did.  Ask questions, seek tutoring, or whatever it takes to make you comfortable with the material at hand.
     *Do not wait until the last minute to try to study for an exam or complete an assignment.  Your grade will suffer and you'll end up being more stressed than if you had stayed home from the late night party the weekend before.
     *Pray to God daily (multiple times daily is AWESOME)!  He is our Lord and Savior and wants us to succeed.  He can see us through anything.  And when you actually feel him in your presence, it's by far the best feeling on the planet!!!
     *The best advice I can give any student is to work hard, but don't forget that college is a time of learning not only for careers, but also personal development.  You will learn things about yourself you never thought about before and may be afraid of some of the things you see people do or talk about.  Be yourself, but don't be afraid to get out there and make some friends.  You never know, the people you meet in college could end up to be your future spouse, your best friend, or maybe one day your boss.  Be kind to everyone you meet.

And now that I have gotten that out of the way, I must give myself props.  I was able to correctly identify the Green Lantern on my son's daycare worker's shirt this morning.  So stoked!!

And while on that subject, I am wondering if I should make Green Lantern scrubs or Batman scrubs.  I just cannot decide.  Both are epic in this day and age right??  I think I will put it to a vote.  Comment me your opinions or other ideas and I promise to return the favor at some point. 

1 is the Lonliest Number

So the past few nights, I've been somewhat lonlier than normal.  Usually, I don't want to fall asleep with anyone at all.  The past few nights, I've wanted someone there when I fell asleep.  I've been thinking more and more about family and what I want mine to look like as well.  After pondering it for several days, I've decided that Kayden and I are already a family.  But I would like to get married before I'm 30 (that less than 5 years fellas) and I also want to have my last child no later than age 27 which puts me at about a year to find someone to deal with for the rest of my life and get pregant by said man soon thereafter.... I may have to budge a little on that plan, it's out of my hands though... Because now God knows my plans and I just have to wait for Him to reveal what His plans are for me these next few years.

When I get lonely, I feel sad and I don't like feeling sad so I find something to do.  Usually what I do is watch something on Netflix..... scrubs, prison break, hawthoRNe are my go to shows right now.  I also talk to God alot.  I haven't been going to church, but he can hear me wherever I am.  I talk to him about my lonliness, about my feelings of the day, apologize for my sins of the day and seek forgiveness from Him. I ask Him to take the wheel and lead me where I need to go.  Because with Him, nothing is out of reach.

My friend Brett has been doing missionary work over the summer and he is set to be home in a couple weeks.  I'm so excited because I haven't seen him in forever and I hate it!!!!

Anyway, before I say too much (which believe me can happen) I'm going to say goodnight and until next time.  If you have thoughts or questions, please leave them in a comment at the bottom of this page or you can email me here   kamsmama11@gmail.com

But You Didn't Specify Mommy!

So yesterday was the day for Kayden and I stay home and get things done around the house.  And that boils down to this:  Kayden plays and makes messes while mommy watches Scrubs and does laundry for the week ahead.  Normally this happens every Saturday (because mommy likes a schedule for doing laundry so I don't have to fight to use the washer and dryer with the rest of the family here).

Before we got up and started our day Kayden was hungry.... already!  It was like 8 something in the morning (and my ONLY day to sleep in) so I was not about to go out into the rest of the house already.  I just happened to have some cheese crackers in the bedroom (to keep seperate from everyone else's food).  Kayden munched on those before he had his actual breakfast.  (I know, no other mom in the US has given her child junk food because she was too lazy to get up).  Anyway, he had too much in his mouth and was trying to put more in so I stopped him.  I said "Kayden, mommy needs you to chew that food before you can put more in your mouth please."  To which his response (the tricky little monster) was spitting his chewed up crackers onto the floor... which I caught with my bare hand just before it landed on the carpet.  GROSS!!! I never thought I would say this, but I would rather change poopy raisin diapers for the rest of my life than to catch warm, wet, chewed cheese crackers with my bare hand just once more.

On a brigher note:

Today, while Kayden was with his daddy, I was able to get strawberries cut up,veggies steamed, popcorn popped, and cheese crackers all into their little individual serving bag.  The snacks (popcorn and cheese crackers) went into Kayden's snack drawer while the strawberries and veggies went to the freezer for when I need to hurry up and eat on my lunch hour :)  If this works out well, I will start getting serious about this whole cooking at home bit.

But mommy, I don't want your girl stuff in my cart! I'm a boy!!

So today was yet another adventure in mommy land.  Went to Walmart, because toddlers think they need to drink milk every day lol

Now just to give you a little background, Kayden refuses to sit in the seat part of a shopping cart.  He has to sit in the basket part where your soon to be stuff goes for its final journey through the store.  Anywho, while there, I decided to get a few necessities.  And a certain girl product.

My lovely little bundle of joy likes to throw things out of the cart as we’re strolling through the store.  I don’t know why, but I’ve learned not to question it.  Like so many other things that guys do, just let it go and try not to question the motivation.

Anyway, after I put my girl stuff in the cart was when my child decided he wanted to start throwing things out of the cart.  First was my girl products.  After I placed them BACK in the cart and told Kayden “Please don’t throw mommy’s personal things in the floor of a public place.”  So we walk a little farther to the main aisle of the store and he strikes again.  Only this time, a hot guy walked by and saw what Kayden had thrown.  I was horribly EMBARASSED!  So red faced and trying to not laugh so as not to encourage my son to continue such inconvenient behavior, I bent over and picked up the item and again placed it in my cart.  This time, Kayden went in the actual seat and we got out of the store as soon as we paid for our stuff.  And that took a while because I had forgotten my wallet at home because Kayden decided to use my purse as a little play toy and dumped its contents all over the floor :)

Lesson of The Day: Laugh as often as you can!  That’s the only way to get through life as a woman, a mom, and especially a single mom.  And always know that our children are the reason we do what we do and that without them (even when they’re at their worst) we would be lost.

Lesson #2 of The Day:  Never let your child play with your purse.  You will lose something from it... and it's hard telling where if you'll find it

I Said No!!!!

Today I went to pick my son up from daycare and then went on to Walmart.  Mistake 1.   While at walmart, I totally bypassed all the fun stuff that I don’t need and went straight for the food section!  Go me!  And then I have no clue what I wanted to get for the week so I was unprepared. Mistake 2.    As I strolled through the aisles trying to figure out what I could do for meals with things we may have at home, Kayden decided he just had to potty…. In his diaper.  Of which, I had no extras!  Mistake 3.  Now I’m in a hurry trying to feed 2 for a week on less than $50.00 and totally failed!  He smelled so bad, I just ended up getting 3 of his frozen meals, 2 of my frozen meals, Instant Rice, Cheetos, fruit snacks, some Tupperware containers to contain the leftovers, cheese it crackers, and snack bags for just over $30.  Stuck to my budget but didn’t get near enough food!

So just to be clear, the following are things NOT to do when going shopping for food to feed 2 people for a full week on less than $50 a week:

Rule #1: Never, under any circumstances, take children when shopping for breakfast.
Rule #2: Never attempt a shopping trip on a budget without putting thought into making a list! Take it with you and absolutely stick to it!  Do NOT UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES STRAY FROM YOUR LIST!!!

Rule #3: If you must take a child with you (which you shouldn’t if you follow Rule #1 above) DON’T FORGET THE DIAPER BAG!!!!

Needless to say, after I got him home and cleaned up and fed it was close to bed time.  I thought he was being all sweet and loving to the woman who birthed him but I couldn't have been more wrong!  My little bundle of joy came in for a "hug" and left with a sore mouth!  The little biter had done it again!  Bit me right on my breast!  AAAAHHHH! NOOOO!  "Mommy said NO Mr!"

Now he is in bed and I'm a little bruised from where his teeth punctured my thin skin!  I'm in for a world of adventures with this boy :)