I do not have anything in particular to write about today, but I figured I needed to give my readers something to think about. So here goes my plethora of recent findings :)
1. I have found that although I always stress about classes, I always seem to find the time and energy to study.
2. I have found that standing still for extended periods of time is often more demanding than running around in circles.
3. I have found that I secretly like being busy. I only figured this out because I haven't been bored at all and have loved every second of the craziness :)
4. I have found that my family means everything to me. More so than I thought before.
5. I have found that I can convince myself to get along with almost anyone.
6. I have found that I can only eat 2 fried eggs but can eat 3 scrambled eggs.
7. I have found that I don't spend money like I used to, but I still don't have any put away in savings.
8. I have found that I like to think. And I like to write about what I think about.
9. I have found that I am capable of forgiving people.
10. I have found that I am an eager beaver when it comes to preparing to craft. But when I actually sit down to do something, I grow tired of it quickly.
These are not major findings, but they have impacted me greatly in the past week or so. The most important finding to date (or realization rather) is that there are only 14 full weeks of class left in the fall semester! The countdown has officially begun :)
Thursday, August 30, 2012
Wednesday, August 15, 2012
Yes, I Gave Myself A Pep Talk.... Or 12 Beforehand!
Laugh of The Day: A certain percentage of women actually use their kids (homework, laundry, projects, etc) to get out of having sex with their partners. It made me laugh, and I don't even have to worry about it lol!
Today was that dreaded day: Ya know, the one where you have to give yourself a pep talk so you actually make it to the doctor’s appointment that you never wanted to schedule in the first place. Yes ladies, the female doctor day. The oh-so-dreaded hoo-ha exposé.
These appointments are so uncomfortable and embarrassing for the patient anyway (unless she is used to having her business all out in the open for a strange person to stare and poke/prod at??). Let alone when you arrive in the room and are told to undress and have the gown open in the front and cover your lap with a sheet (that reminds me of a pillow case)! Then the doctor comes in and you find him somewhat attractive for an older guy and wonder why in the world he chose the job he did so many years ago.
At any rate, said doctor actually does it: he asked “how are you doing and why do you look so uncomfortable?” “Dee-dee-dee doctor, I don’t wanna be here!” I think. But I muster up enough wisdom to realize that saying “dee-dee-dee to the doctor with all the power in my girl parts at the moment is probably not the smartest thing to do. So instead, I say “Well I’m really not excited at being the opening show for the hoo-ha exposé”. Welcome to the what I should have said theater… not that most definitely lol!
He didn’t find my remark humorous (although looking back, I think it was hilarious!). He told me to "put your feet in the stirrups" (like I'm on a horse hear man!) and then he went on about his business as I went on with mine. Which only involved closing my eyes as tightly as I could in an effort to imagine I was somewhere ANYWHERE else! After what seemed like an eternity, probably only a minute, if that, it was done! The doctor had washed his hands and the whole nine yards. I still felt a little odd, with that just happening and all, and then having to look the man in the face as he tries to tell me how long before I get the results and all that fun stuff. And I don’t know why hearing that man say “vagina” so many times was weird, seeing as how that is what is profession focuses on, but it just struck me as odd. I was just trying to hurry the small talk along so I could get off the paper covered bed and back into my clothes. Which seems silly when the only thing I can think about at this point is getting home so I can shower!
I know it may seem silly for me to actually post this on a public blog, but I can’t be embarrassed about the dreaded appointment that every woman (at least most---all should, but some don’t) has to go through annually. It is always embarrassing at the time, but I can talk about it. Granted, I don’t use the best or most reader-appropriate terms/language here, but it’s not like I’m cursing either. I just don’t have a good mouth to keyboard filter…. It’s out of commission these days.
After having gotten pregnant, having a child, having numerous pap smears and pelvic exams done, this one was still JUST as embarrassing as the rest. It never gets easier, but it has to be done. My health depends on me going through this torture every single year until I am told otherwise. These tests are the way doctors detect cervical cancer, cervical dysplasia, and so many other things that can have a HUGE impact on our bodies as women.
And actually, I think may next post may be about my pregnancy and the delivery of my son. That may actually need to be a series, but it should prove to be entertaining in the least.
Your doctor should be NOTHING like the doctor in this funny Family Guys clip above.
Friday, August 10, 2012
Live, Dream, Pray
Sadly, this diet hasn't been followed to a T. As I suffer from IBS, I realized (with the help of my doctor) that raw veggies will only aggravate my gut. Definitely not something I am willing to deal with to shed a few measly pounds. I have however decided to eat healthier foods more often and drink water more often as well. Lately, I have been drinking water with Crystal Light packets throughout the day. It just makes me feel like I am actually doing something to reach my goal of being healthy.
Speaking of health, I have had trouble sleeping since before I got pregnant with my son (which was in 2010). I can't fall asleep easily, even with the assistance of medications for that very thing, and when I do fall asleep, I can't stay asleep very long. I go through periods of time where I wake up 1 or 2 times a night and the more often periods of waking up every 1 or 2 hours each night. This makes for a very tired, unmotivated, and somewhat grouchy Summer! I have had a lot of time to think about life as I know it, life as I wish it were, and life as I thank God it is not. Which brings me to my next few words for you.
Life As I Know It
These days, being a single mama and all, I have very little me time. I work all day at a doctor's office and come home to care for my son. On days when he is with his daddy, I have a few hours to relax or study (when school is in session). Each Tuesday night (with the exception of those nights I just can't stop reading my school books) I head to the B for TNT! For those of you who don't know, Baptist Collegiate Ministries is an excellent organization. They provide us with awesome people to love and cherish and a place (though it is not a necessity) to pray and worship our Lord! TNT stands for Tuesday Nights Together: a scheduled time of the week for all of us busy college students to meet and gather to worship and interact with fellow Christians on campus. This place has been such a positive addition to my life. I can only imagine where I'd be (or what my situation might be) had I not been introduced to Roger (the man I adopted as my Daddy). On weekends, Kayden and I sit at home and he play with toys, makes messes, makes it difficult for mommy to get anything productive done. I don't know how many episodes of various shows I have watched via Netflix on the Wii. I don't typically meet anyone or do anything costing money or forcing me to go alone (ie, without my son).
Life As I Wish It Were
Every now and then I get frustrated with the day to day and the hustle and bustle that has become my life. I dream of a life after I have graduated with a degree in Medical Assisting (sometimes I wish even further ahead and have become an RN). In this perfect life, I get along constantly with my son's dad and have a nice car, a nice home that I am not afraid to live in, and a male companion. He's out there somewhere (whether I've met him or not I don't know). Everyday after work, I come home and play with my son, help him with his homework, have dinner as a family (which seems little, but means so much to someone who doesn't get that anymore), and we settle down and read books, talk about our days, pray for family and friends and whatever else we may want to talk to the Big Guy about. As I get ready to tuck Kayden into his big boy bed (that he stays in all night long--afterall, it is a dream world), I tell him I love him and ask him to say his bedtime prayer. Whatever he says is unknown, but the sincerity and innocence seen on his face is amazing.
Life As I Thank God It's Not
In this traggic life I am grateful I don't have, I don't have a job to guarantee financial security. I don't have a great child care facility to leave my child at when I can't watch him. In this sad scenario, I don't have the ability to worship freely the higher power of my choosing, I don't have the luxury of going to school, and I definitely don't have health insurance to meet the medical needs of my family. I could go on and on for what I am grateful for having/not having, but I won't.
The End Result (Tie it together)
I don't have the life I desire, but it could always be worse. Their are perks to being where I am right now. I don't have to pay rent, I don't have a car payment, I don't live alone, I have a free place to sleep and my son is cared for by an excellent staff at daycare. I get to go to bed at night knowing that I have done what I wanted throughout the day and I know that at the end of the day, I will not be jailed for worshipping my God. I definitely think we should all take a few minutes of our day and pray we never have to worry about being jailed for practicing our faith. Diversity is a great thing of our nation and religion is not excluded. Whatever you do during the day, pray for a better self tomorrow :)
Speaking of health, I have had trouble sleeping since before I got pregnant with my son (which was in 2010). I can't fall asleep easily, even with the assistance of medications for that very thing, and when I do fall asleep, I can't stay asleep very long. I go through periods of time where I wake up 1 or 2 times a night and the more often periods of waking up every 1 or 2 hours each night. This makes for a very tired, unmotivated, and somewhat grouchy Summer! I have had a lot of time to think about life as I know it, life as I wish it were, and life as I thank God it is not. Which brings me to my next few words for you.
Life As I Know It
These days, being a single mama and all, I have very little me time. I work all day at a doctor's office and come home to care for my son. On days when he is with his daddy, I have a few hours to relax or study (when school is in session). Each Tuesday night (with the exception of those nights I just can't stop reading my school books) I head to the B for TNT! For those of you who don't know, Baptist Collegiate Ministries is an excellent organization. They provide us with awesome people to love and cherish and a place (though it is not a necessity) to pray and worship our Lord! TNT stands for Tuesday Nights Together: a scheduled time of the week for all of us busy college students to meet and gather to worship and interact with fellow Christians on campus. This place has been such a positive addition to my life. I can only imagine where I'd be (or what my situation might be) had I not been introduced to Roger (the man I adopted as my Daddy). On weekends, Kayden and I sit at home and he play with toys, makes messes, makes it difficult for mommy to get anything productive done. I don't know how many episodes of various shows I have watched via Netflix on the Wii. I don't typically meet anyone or do anything costing money or forcing me to go alone (ie, without my son).
Life As I Wish It Were
Every now and then I get frustrated with the day to day and the hustle and bustle that has become my life. I dream of a life after I have graduated with a degree in Medical Assisting (sometimes I wish even further ahead and have become an RN). In this perfect life, I get along constantly with my son's dad and have a nice car, a nice home that I am not afraid to live in, and a male companion. He's out there somewhere (whether I've met him or not I don't know). Everyday after work, I come home and play with my son, help him with his homework, have dinner as a family (which seems little, but means so much to someone who doesn't get that anymore), and we settle down and read books, talk about our days, pray for family and friends and whatever else we may want to talk to the Big Guy about. As I get ready to tuck Kayden into his big boy bed (that he stays in all night long--afterall, it is a dream world), I tell him I love him and ask him to say his bedtime prayer. Whatever he says is unknown, but the sincerity and innocence seen on his face is amazing.
Life As I Thank God It's Not
In this traggic life I am grateful I don't have, I don't have a job to guarantee financial security. I don't have a great child care facility to leave my child at when I can't watch him. In this sad scenario, I don't have the ability to worship freely the higher power of my choosing, I don't have the luxury of going to school, and I definitely don't have health insurance to meet the medical needs of my family. I could go on and on for what I am grateful for having/not having, but I won't.
The End Result (Tie it together)
I don't have the life I desire, but it could always be worse. Their are perks to being where I am right now. I don't have to pay rent, I don't have a car payment, I don't live alone, I have a free place to sleep and my son is cared for by an excellent staff at daycare. I get to go to bed at night knowing that I have done what I wanted throughout the day and I know that at the end of the day, I will not be jailed for worshipping my God. I definitely think we should all take a few minutes of our day and pray we never have to worry about being jailed for practicing our faith. Diversity is a great thing of our nation and religion is not excluded. Whatever you do during the day, pray for a better self tomorrow :)
Monday, August 6, 2012
Easing Into A New Me
I have decided (thanks to the inspiration of one awesome Rose Bear) to begin the 17 day diet. It's a very inspirational and seemingly simple plan to follow. I have been easing myself into the diet for several days by lowering my soda intake day by day. As of today, I had 1 can of sprite which is caffeine free. I'm impressed with myself.
I can definately give a big thanks to Crystal Light for the strawberry drink mix that makes water more tolerable for me. If not for that, I wouldn't be able to give up soda at all.
Tomorrow is the official start day of my diet, but at the moment I do not know what I'm having for dinner. So far I have this on my list for tomorrow:
Breakfast:2 hard-boiled eggs. I like them and can eat them on the go. Easy breakfast.
AM Snack: Carrots... easy to take to work and not too shabby on the taste buds.
Lunch: Strawberries/Grapes (possibly a salad if I have a chance to get one)
PM Snack: The carrots leftover from AM snack.
Dinner: Unknown. Possibly chicken breast with broccoli and cauliflower?
To drink: All the ice cold water I can drink. They say to drink 64 ounces a day which shouldn't be too hard if I go through 48 ounces just in the 7 hours I spend at work.
This is where the planning comes into play. I have to make sure I get my snacks and lunch ready before I go to bed because I don't have time to do so of a morning. Depending on the weather, I may walk on my lunch hour or I may do 17 minutes of Zumba after work... not sure yet. Even I can do 17 minutes of physical activity (meaning exercise not normally part of my routine) every day with enough motivation. And my motivation is this: I want to be healthy. I want to be able to run and play with my son without getting out of breath from being so out of shape. I want to be able to buy a pair of pants that don't make me look like I'm snuggling a muffin under my clothes :).... Sadly, I just thought of a muffin... I love the ones with chocolate chips in them...
If anyone wants to join me on this adventure, please feel free to do so. I'm sure if I can do it, anyone can do it!! As always, comments are welcome and encouragement is always appreciated :)
I can definately give a big thanks to Crystal Light for the strawberry drink mix that makes water more tolerable for me. If not for that, I wouldn't be able to give up soda at all.
Tomorrow is the official start day of my diet, but at the moment I do not know what I'm having for dinner. So far I have this on my list for tomorrow:
Breakfast:2 hard-boiled eggs. I like them and can eat them on the go. Easy breakfast.
AM Snack: Carrots... easy to take to work and not too shabby on the taste buds.
Lunch: Strawberries/Grapes (possibly a salad if I have a chance to get one)
PM Snack: The carrots leftover from AM snack.
Dinner: Unknown. Possibly chicken breast with broccoli and cauliflower?
To drink: All the ice cold water I can drink. They say to drink 64 ounces a day which shouldn't be too hard if I go through 48 ounces just in the 7 hours I spend at work.
This is where the planning comes into play. I have to make sure I get my snacks and lunch ready before I go to bed because I don't have time to do so of a morning. Depending on the weather, I may walk on my lunch hour or I may do 17 minutes of Zumba after work... not sure yet. Even I can do 17 minutes of physical activity (meaning exercise not normally part of my routine) every day with enough motivation. And my motivation is this: I want to be healthy. I want to be able to run and play with my son without getting out of breath from being so out of shape. I want to be able to buy a pair of pants that don't make me look like I'm snuggling a muffin under my clothes :).... Sadly, I just thought of a muffin... I love the ones with chocolate chips in them...
If anyone wants to join me on this adventure, please feel free to do so. I'm sure if I can do it, anyone can do it!! As always, comments are welcome and encouragement is always appreciated :)
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