So the past few nights, I've been somewhat lonlier than normal. Usually, I don't want to fall asleep with anyone at all. The past few nights, I've wanted someone there when I fell asleep. I've been thinking more and more about family and what I want mine to look like as well. After pondering it for several days, I've decided that Kayden and I are already a family. But I would like to get married before I'm 30 (that less than 5 years fellas) and I also want to have my last child no later than age 27 which puts me at about a year to find someone to deal with for the rest of my life and get pregant by said man soon thereafter.... I may have to budge a little on that plan, it's out of my hands though... Because now God knows my plans and I just have to wait for Him to reveal what His plans are for me these next few years.
When I get lonely, I feel sad and I don't like feeling sad so I find something to do. Usually what I do is watch something on Netflix..... scrubs, prison break, hawthoRNe are my go to shows right now. I also talk to God alot. I haven't been going to church, but he can hear me wherever I am. I talk to him about my lonliness, about my feelings of the day, apologize for my sins of the day and seek forgiveness from Him. I ask Him to take the wheel and lead me where I need to go. Because with Him, nothing is out of reach.
My friend Brett has been doing missionary work over the summer and he is set to be home in a couple weeks. I'm so excited because I haven't seen him in forever and I hate it!!!!
Anyway, before I say too much (which believe me can happen) I'm going to say goodnight and until next time. If you have thoughts or questions, please leave them in a comment at the bottom of this page or you can email me here kamsmama11@gmail.com
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